Focus on what you want and not on what is. I always seem to forget that. I don’t like to put quotes up or make vision boards because I don’t like to face ridicule. Such a sensitive little bird I am. Gag. Everything happens for a reason, right?
Yes I am much wiser for what I have experienced in the last few years. Perhaps I will be able to rebuild from where I am. I am not super confident at the moment though.
I want to be free to be me.
Perhaps I should go to Texas to visit my mom. But she and everyone living in her house have a level of disfunctionality going on that I find hard to deal with being the sensitive little bird that I am. Gag. Plus there isn’t really a room for me to stay in there. I need my space to retreat, especially with the level of kookooness going on there. Alas, ’tis a bad idea.
I need to clean up the energy in my bedroom. I would like to get rid of all of my belongings. Well, most of them. I started on that yesterday, well, just general cleaning, and then had an energy crash that sent me into a moderate depression. My vibration is just all over the place lately. I feel stupid writing things in Law of Attraction terms. Perhaps that is just because I don’t feel free to be me. Waaaaahh.
I like to listen to Muse music. I just love Matt Bellamy’s guitar riffs. I think I was a revolutionary in a past life. When I first learned about the truth of 9/11 I was so fired up. Man I was pissed. I started talking about that s&^t to everyone. They all seemed very confused and most thought I was losing it. Perhaps I was. Then a whole cascade of events really effed things up for me for a while. Be careful if you start talking about 9/11. There is a reason that people still don’t talk about it. I will leave it at that.
How come the psychotic people always wind up being in charge of things?
Focus on what you want and not what is.
I can’t afford to think about 9/11 at the moment. But sometimes it’s just nice to be unabashedly pissed off about things.
Somehow I need to transform this sentiment…
more into this type of sentiment….
I totally love this song by Kenny Loggins. If you haven’t yet heard it, I highly recommend it.
Such a confused soul I am.
Can I fully embrace the law of attraction? I need to look for that good feeling thought.