Is that me? Do I like to read about other unhealthy INFPs?
So the world is a screwed up place and at one point in time I felt like it could be changed. I felt like I had an obligation to change it. But then I learned that a lot of big forces exist that make any big positive changes in the world very difficult to accomplish. There is my limiting belief.
I’m tired of self-help. I’m not saying it doesn’t work. I have been using it as an excuse for not taking action. I am a coward. Yep. That’s me. Social anxiety. I’m too old for social anxiety though.
I feel very out of the social loop. I don’t know how to get back in. And I don’t want to try to make friends with people who….are…boring? What a snob. I am boring, very boring. But I want to meet the idealists. I am not putting my idealism to work so I don’t feel worthy of meeting the idealists and there is my catch-22. I feel too isolated to make a difference but I’m too lame to meet the people who are working on this type of thing.
A big part of me wants to keep hiding out from reality. So there is that inner conflict always going on.
I don’t know. Are there any other unhealthy INFPs out there? Drop me a comment?
Enjoy the rest of your holidays. 🙂