Hello Bloggie Bloggers!!
That upbeat greeting doesn’t really reflect my mood at the moment. I feel tired and discouraged. I feel like I don’t really exist in the world in any meaningful way. My internet blog peers seem leaps and bounds beyond me. Many of you are very grounded and practical, traits which I used to have to some extent but which seems oh-so difficult for me to embody these days.
I can’t seem to wrap my head around this intuitive/sensitive/empath thing at the moment. I mean it’s good to realize why dealing with reality is so much more challenging for me than it seems for other people, but am I just making excuses?
So I have to say I really buy into the concept of our soul, morality and strength of character developing over multiple lifetimes. It just makes more sense to me than any other theories that are out there. Plus, if you’ve read any books by Michael Newton, or several other hypnotherapists who have delved deeply into the minds of their patients and made startling correlations that can’t easily be explained away, then you might be convinced of these ideas, or not. I don’t aim to convince anyone.
So given that premise, what am I supposed to be learning this lifetime? I would have to say that one of the big themes would have to revolve around male/female relations and how they go wrong. I tend to isolate myself more and more lately, but pretty much all the male/female relationships that I do have a chance to observe in an upfront and personal way have a general pattern: an insensitive, somewhat dominating, perhaps in some cases narcissistic male paired with a more passive, sensitive, perhaps empathic female.
Does that sound like victim mentality? Is this a good guy versus a bad guy kind of thing? This pattern is so powerful and I think it directs the course of so many people’s lives in less than awesome ways that I really am at a loss to know how to begin addressing it. I feel sad.
In my world, men and women seem like they are from different planets at the moment. Why do they even bother to get together?
So my perception of this is skewed. Perhaps these relationships aren’t really as bad as I perceive them to be. These are just people working out their issues in romantic, or more often, romantically dead relationships. Okay, I am making assumptions here. I don’t know the details of that.
And here I am off in the clouds contemplating things that I have no control over. Strong patterns that I see and perhaps that only bother me.
Or perhaps, just perhaps, if I can somehow find a way to break this pattern in my own relationship, there will be some magical larger impact on the world at large, or perhaps just those in my immediate social circle? Perhaps.
Everyone’s beliefs give their life greater meaning in some way, even if they aren’t really correct/true beliefs. But perhaps our belief in them is what makes them true.
Okay, I’ll stop with the New Age babble.